I'm just feeling really frustrated about being home for the holidays
ever since i was very young, i took every opportunity I could to not be in my house, like I would push and push for sleepaway camps, I wanted to go to boarding schools (never did lol thats expensive as shit), I spent all the time I could doing extra curriculars in high school and now i go to school in maine and I'm sort of realizing that when I'm home i'm miserable and when I'm not home I'm just a better person.
the issue is that my family puts lots of emphasis on family and I'm not sure how to be home as little as possible, especially when they're so supportive (at least monetarily) to me. I mean that they're willing to pay for plane tickets home, pay for my food and even my gas. I don't know how to tell them I want to be independent of them without coming off as an immature, mean spirited person.
does anyone have experience in these situations?